The Right Person
Watching you walk out of my life does not make me bitter or cynical about love, but rather makes me realize that if I wanted so much to be with the wrong person, how beautiful it will be when the right one comes along.
Transition
It’s kinda like this is the stage of life where I learn to prioritize my life. Giving up Facebook for as long as I can. No more Myspace or Twitter. Just AIM for now and for the most part, I would either be away or invisible. After I come back from Chicago this weekend, I’m starting to work for my grandma on the weekends. Planning out my schedule for the entire week and hoping to keep up with it. For now, I’m trying to keep up with everything a
nd catch up with my senior project class.
Hey, I think this break up has taught me something.
Never put all your feelings on a guy
because when he leaves you, everything comes falling apart and you would have to waste extra energy to build it again. Luckily I guarded myself and not put too much feelings into him. I’m quite sad, honestly, but I am okay. I’m moving on.
And I have realized that I’ve been thinking about a particular someone for the past week or more lately. It’s kinda not good but I guess it helps me get over TJ.
I’m okay. 
It’s pretty difficult for me to cope with right now but I can get through it. Life’s tough and I just gotta deal with it.
I’m extremely tired, sleepy, exhausted, stressed but what can I do about it?
Shit happen to people and there’s nothing that can be done but deal with it the best that you can.
I’m thankful for my having my best friends be there for me, encouraging me, either silently or vocally. I appreciate all those people that had been and still are there for me whenever I am sad or depressed.
And, Sis. I’m really thankful that we’ve been friends since middle school. You and Jade are the longest best friends I’ve ever kept up with it. Especially with you, I tell you everything, how I feel, what bothers me, and all those emotional personal problems. I like that I can tell you that and you don’t judge me. I like that you tell me how you feel about what I do whether I like to hear it or not. We’ve been through quite a lot and I’m happy that we have. We share so many secrets that no one else know and that makes me feel special.
I’m glad that you’ve always been there for me.
Distance makes the heart grow fonder and this helps me realize that we can still be close no matter how far we are away from each other.
Thanks, Sis. For always being there as my emotional supporter.
<3
Forward
I give up on this. Here I am moving forward. A little tired, sleepy, stressed out, but I’m doing fine. Fairly fine. I’ll get through this.
What am I feeling?
Sometimes I don’t know what I’m feeling, really. Am I sad or am I happy? I don’t know if I’m accepting my feelings or avoiding them. I have no idea. There are so many things going on with me right now, so many emotions rushing through me each day. I tell people I’m okay but I have no idea myself. My life doesn’t suck. I’m satisfied with my life but I’m just not coping well with all these changes.
TJ?
I don’t know if I’m over him or not. I have not seen or talked to him in a long time so I’m feeling “okay” about it but I don’t know what will happen if he talks to me again or if I see him again.
Juno?
Struggling with my feelings with him right now. I don’t know if I like him or if I’m just depending on him to help me get over TJ because he’s here for me right now.
I have no idea.
School?
Just stressing me out. I feel like I’m slipping far far away from it. I’m trying to get back up but sometimes with the stress from my family and their demands, I feel like I’m just slipping even more.
Sometimes I wish I have an older brother or sister to guide me, to help me. But I guess I have to deal with this on my own.
I wish I don’t have to take care of my sister, though. I’m just really stressed and tired.
*Sighs*
I miss being in seventh grade.
I miss being with my best friends and talking to them about all my problems, all my troubles. I want hugs and I want comfort.
Sometimes I feel like I’m just throwing my life away.
What am I doing with my life.
I Wonder
Am I really okay or I’m just forcing myself to believe that I am okay? Isn’t it the same thing?
*Sighs*
I need a hug.
Remember?
Sometimes I wonder to myself if people remember promises that they’ve made. If they remember things that they’ve said to the ones they cared about. Did they really meant what they said?
I wonder why people leave us. Is it because they’re tired of us? Or is it because we’re not longer useful in their life?
There are those kind of friends that you rarely talk to but you both have a mutual understanding of each other. I think distance makes the heart grow fonder? Too much of someone makes you tired of that person and eventually annoyed by them. Sometimes a little space makes you appreciate that person more.
You learn to know how important they are in their life.
Friends are kind of like salt and sugar. Too much of sugar can make you hate it just as spending too much time with yours friends will make you annoyed of them.
*Sighs*
I’m really tired. I tried doing my academic resume but this is not working.
I’m gonna pass out.
Night.
